...so there I was again, looking at him from the distance, being all confused, not having a slightest idea what was going on. So what is it that he wants from me? All this playing and hint-dropping...Was there something, or did I just make it up in a desperate attempt to see exactly what I wanted to see, rather than the uncomfortable truth, which can be quite devastating sometimes. As I was feeling the lump coming up my throat, my vision got all blurry, however her big, or should I maybe say HUGE nose was hard not to notice, he was standing right behind her, holding her in his arms. I thought I was gonna lose it right then and there...
He's so sweet, attractive, sexy, charming, very well groomed, he's so...he's so everything that I ever wanted. Straight? Gay? Bi? Of course after all the attention he gave me along with direct compliments I made my ruling on that question in a matter of couple days. Little did I know, he'd been engaged for months then. Oops, got the wrong idea...again. But hey, how could I have not gotten the wrong idea if he was acting as if he was interested? I can still hear him say "Hey man, have you met Kathy yet? It's Kathy, my fiance..." An average looking woman with a really big nose was smiling at me, raising her hand for a shake. My world collapsed that very second. Still busting my brains trying to figure out how a man of such overwhelming beauty could have possibly settled down for Ms.Pinocchio. How? Why? What for?
P.S. Unlike many queer boys out there I'm not Kelly Clarkson's fan, but that one song was just a perfect fit for the entire situation : Oh, and I don't know I don't know what he's after But he's so beautiful Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on Through the tears and the laughter Would it be beautiful Or just a beautiful disaster?
P.P.S. Not looking for any advice or help, it's just...well I just got hurt, got hurt big time, and that was me saying "ouch"...
Vitafelina wrote: А что TRUE? Оскорбительно отозваться о женщине, которую человек, которым Вы восхищаетесь, выбрал своей женой? Только потому, что она - а не Вы? Только потому, что Вы считаете себя лучше? красивее? достойнее?
Hey I'm not trying to bring anyone down, I'm just upset I didn't get the guy. I was actually naive enough to believe that he was into me. I thought I was getting a certain message from him. And when someone gets your hopes up like that only to take them away, it's hurting you. You have all kind of emotions good and bad, but since the whole experience wasn't so great you tend to dwell on negative, and it needs to be taken out on someone... I know I shouldn't have said all those things about her, but I needed a release. I hope you understand...
Вт, Апр 25, 2006 04:40pm Elgransilencio - 6598 d back
Нууу... Тогда Вы просто глупы, батенька. Выводы надо делать, выводы, из жизненных уроков.
I need to learn my lesson? Is it me who's dumb as an empty barrel? Hey Vita you don't know me, and I didn't get a pleasure of knowing you........and come to think of it, I strongly suggest we keep it that way!!!!!
Вт, Апр 25, 2006 05:03pm Elgransilencio - 6598 d back
to Vita: Just read what I posted. I'm being an ass again. I'm sorry. From what I've read on here I get the idea you're very interesting woman, anyone would like to get to know you better...
Короче, Silencio Ass Вы или не Ass - это Вам виднее То, что человек, не делающий выводы из жизненных уроков, в некотором смысле глуп - это не оскорбление, а констатация факта. Вы, я, кто-то еще. Не глобально глуп - а, так сказать, конкретно, по ситуации. Бывает, что люди умнеют, бывает, что нет. Я вот, относительных некоторых жизненных уроков сильно поумнела. А в некоторых так и осталась - дура дурой. И мне еще учиться и учиться.
Если человек в 155 раз наступает на одни и те же габли и трет свой синяк или набитую шишку, обвиняя при этом того, ктоэти грабли тут оставил, я лично назову глупым именно того, кто наступает на них. Потому как, надо раззуть глаза и увидеть их. А если не видишь - то надо тренировать свое зрение. Что есть серъезная работа над собой.
Но я вижу, что наши с Вами взгляды на грабли разнятся. Имею честь откланяться
Сколько лет возлюбленному? Ошо замечательно,на мой вгляд, описал психологию геев.К годам так 35-ти им надоедают стабильные, без остроты отношения с мужчинами, они хотят чего-то новенького, начинают задумываться о смысле жизни, детях и т.д. Хотят иметь семью "как все". Потом женятся, заводят ребенка и опять им надоедают уже отношения с женщиной. Они возвращаются с своим "бывшим", круг замкнулся. Мой совет: не бросаться на амбразуру. Подожди пару годков, разведется твой "свет в окне", притопает назад. Может он еше будет секси и вел груминг, но, как грится, ничто не вечно... проза жизни
I can still hear him say "Hey man, have you met Kathy yet? It's Kathy, my fiance..." An average looking woman with a really big nose was smiling at me, raising her hand for a shake. My world collapsed that very second.
